04 April 2011

Bittersweet


Dear Caitlyn, 

Today you are two months old. I can't believe how fast the last two months have gone. They have been filled with so much joy. As I reflect today on all that you have brought to our lives, I can no longer imagine life without you. 

One day when you are old enough to understand, I will explain to you how bittersweet today is. Last year, my Grandma passed away on this day. She is the one that named me Snick and would have called you Baby Snick. She would have been so in love with you. Last year this day was Easter Sunday. Easter will forever be a hard day for our family no matter what date it falls on. 

I woke up this morning wanting to put you in a bubble so that you would always be protected from pain. I quickly realized this was impossible. I cannot protect you from loss anymore than I can turn the tide. While this will be hard to understand for a long time, the hardships in life are what make each day beautiful. Every hard thing that I have been through has made me a stronger person who appreciates each day that I am given. What I can do is promise is that I will be there for you as long as I can. When life gets hard, Daddy and I will be there for you. We will never be able to make it all better, but we will do all that we can to be there for you. 

(pic taken a couple days before Adam went back overseas)

While you will not understand for a long time, I want you to know that even when your Daddy is overseas he is still here for you. You are his world. When he has to go, it is never anything we have done. His job is takes him away from us, but you need to know that he does this job to make the world a safer place for us. You are the most important thing in his life. He constantly asks about you, wants pictures of you and talks about what all you guys will do when he gets home. 

I'm not sure that we will ever be able to explain what you have done to our lives. I can tell you that life has never been better than it is now. Each day is new and exciting. Our lives have never been more filled  with joy than they are now. 

We love you, little girl! 
Mommy and Daddy

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

This is so sweet. It brought tears to my eyes! I am sorry for the loss of your grandma!
It really stinks that your hubby had to go back overseas but you are right he does this to make it a safer place and a BIG THANK YOU to YOU and HIM for that :)
Baby Snick is absolutely darling and I can't believe it's already been 2 months.
Cherish it all :) Have a great day!